Father's Day

Well it doesn't help that Rob is 650 miles away and he had to spend his father's day without his son or his wife. Made me a little blue but no sense on dwelling on it. Rob and I made a "OURSPACE" on myspace. So since I wont have my own blog there, this will be my very own writing space. I went to church this morning which was a little different for me. For awhile now, my faith wasn't part of my Sunday routine. But I found myself just saying daily prayers. Corny I know. Don't get me wrong I am no where near a "holy roller" or even claiming to be something I'm not. I curse, I drink, and well obviously I had premarital sex. But on the other hand I try and catch myself from judging others or holding grudges. I find that we are all human beings and you should be kind to those who aren't so kind in return and smile at them. For you are having a better day than them. You might as well be grateful for the fact that you can smile in your day and they can only be grumpy.

Another thing that I don't want to do in my blogs is make situations seem like they are perfect and just peachy. In fact today I felt fat and gross. I wanted to cut off all my hair and dye it blonde. Trust me I thought about it. And we aren't talking just below the shoulders. We are taking to the chin but obviously I did not. Thankfully I don't have a credit card in my hands to max out bc today I would have done some serious shopping damage. Instead I went to church, food shopping, cleaned the house, played with AJ, made dinner, took AJ for a walk, call all the daddies and now I'm here writing about it. I miss my husband so much. It almost makes me angry to not have him around. But I guess one more year apart is nothing compared to a lifetime together. I just don't like living for the future anymore. But I don't exactly have a choice. I want to be with my husband so this is the price I have to pay

I had the gas chamber this past week which was not fun. I also had my physical fitness test which I knew I tried my hardest but I wanted to do so much better. I always get nervous before these events which does not help. This week I have to go to the combat pool and to the ISMT. The second week in July I have to go to the rifle range and eventually who knows where I will be or what I will be doing. My plane ticket is booked for myJune 30th- 96. I get off at 12 on the 30th and don't have to be back until 6pm on the 5th. Not too shabby. My dad should be coming down soon and stoofie said she was going to be coming here in aug. My new phone comes this week and I'm excited about that. Not to excited about putting all the numbers in my phone but w/e I will survive. On a better note Dice and Lily got engaged last night. I'm so happy for them.... Lily is a great woman is she brings out the best in Dice. They are really in love and I wish them nothing but the best.  I've also been coming up with lists for the wedding. Places to have the reception, churches, florists, limos, DJ's, dress places and what not. So much to do and I dunno if I'm gonna have enough time. Well if you keep reading the future blogs you will see the updates. Anyway I'm gonna go loves... Talk to you all later. ::Smooches::

 

P.S AJ started the BIG KID room @ daycare on Friday. Of course I started to get sad. My little man is getting so big. Thank goodness he isnt my last child....