So Many Choices

OK so Rob and I are planning our wedding in NY. Let me tell you it's not so easy. There are so many choices to be made. OK first is the place to hold the reception. Then there is what to eat and when and exactly what time, and music, and flowers, invitations, and so forth. So I narrowed my places down to 4. When I go home for Christmas I have to meet 2 other caterer. Rob and I decided that since we are already married that as long as it is a Saturday night we don't care what the exact date is. Im somewhere down to Sept through December LOL.... Yeah so once the place is picked out then I can order the invitations... I would really love to do it December 29th of 2007 but Im scared of all the snow that may occur. Anyway I gotta get moving but if you have any suggestions please feel free to suggest away hehe

Forgot to Mention

I never got to tell you about my birthday. I took leave and flew to Orlando to be with my hubby. Friday August 18 @ 8:45 am I turned 21 :o) But I wasnt happy. Rob had to work and I didnt want to do anything. All I did was bitch and complain. Finally when Rob came home I decided to go shopping. Something I should have done during the day but didnt b/c I was being a brat. I almost caused my b-day to go down the tubes. (stupid me) My girls all kept wishing me a happy birthday but i wasnt satisfied. To my knowledge this was the plan. Rob, his sis Nicole and her BF Chris were gonna go to club paris and probably stay out there. Little did I know. I got all dressed up and looked fabulous. Rob said I couldnt leave his room b/c my suprise was coming and it was too big and I would see it. So I stayed in the room. He then came in the room and was like " we are running laate, lets go!!!" So I got up and headed out the door to find a Navigator Limo waiting for us. Shocked and amazed the driver opens my door and there I find my 3 best friends sitting in the limo!!!! HOLY SHIT!!! I was so freaking excited. Lyndz, Lindsey, and Stoofie flew down thursday night to be there for my bday. Of course we drank in the limo. Lindsey got me the hot crown that says "21 Buy me a drink!" Lyndz got me this gorgeous freaking bracelet and Stoofie got me a Nano IPOD!!! We headed off to Club Paris in StYlE! We got there to find out that Rob booked up a VIP spot WOOOHOOOO! We drank Moet, danced our asses off and had a fabulous time. We even made it on the Club Paris website.  They gave me a gift basket with a tank top, a short sleeve shirt and a thong labeled "Thats hot." They gave me pearls LOL and treated me like a princess. We took shots of "red headed slut" and I drank cosmos. Rob got trashed and even danced with me. Everyone had a great time and then we headed back to the hotel to party more. I ended up passing out but didnt through up(go me). I am very proud of myself hehe. Saturday morning bright and early Rob and I went in the pool and then me, the girls and rob went to breakfast. Then back to the hotel to get some rest. Of course we took AJ. ALLL of a sudden these two freaking men jump on me Screaming HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I nearly had a freaking heart attack. AJ started crying. It was my daddy and brother. Talk about a freaking suprise. That night my dad took me, the girls, Aj, Rob, Don and Nicole all out to dinner. Olive Garden Yummm. We had to go somewhere that is kid friendly LOL. The gave me money and gift certificates. Totally awesome right? Sunday everyone went home after lunch at Chili's and I needed to recover. It was the best freaking birthday EVER!!! I can't imagine what the wedding is going to be like. Atleast I know my Bridal Party gets along LOL. Hope you enjoy the pics!!!!

The Rebirth

Recent events that have taken place in my life have changed the way I look at the world. This blog isn't meant to give anyone anything. This blog is a place for ME! Maybe you consider it a bit selfish, but this is what I need in order for me to keep track of my next journey. Im not sure how it happened but I lost sight of my goals. So now it's time to get back on course. I have set some short term goals and some long term goals. AJ has his surgery coming up this week so on top of everything else I am kind of stressed out with that.

Goals:

1. Put my family first a.k.a. Rob & AJ

2. Keep in touch w/ my friends and family

3. work hard! Go to work do my job and do it better than anyone else.

4. Pump that iron. I want an amazing body & I am going to get it.

5. A+ Keep working hard at my school work. I want to getting my grades up & become a teacher one day :o)

6. Decorate the house! Since I really dont have any hobbies or many friends I spend a lot of time in my house. This will be good practice for when I get the house of my dreams.

7. Start to teach AJ about the potty hehe

8. Don't sweat the small stuff. The hard suff is already hard but there is no sense in making the easy stuff hard also

9.  Weed out the bad and keep the good. My life is filled with the important and not so important people. The "friend fillers" you might call them. Time to clean up house.

10. Find myself. Im changing and growing and still learning. My life is not what it used to be therefore I am not who I used to be.

There is room for change and I believe that to be a good thing. Today was my day of reflection. I will keep track of my progress. Tomorrow is a new start. My rebirth!!!Well my little boogie just got up. Gotta get moving. I have a life to live.

Just Thinking

Well if you are looking for an update then go ahead and visit my "Myspace Blog." This entry is for my thoughts. I have realized something. Most couples are so used to things always being peachy in the beginning of thier relationship that when something does not go according to plan they fall apart. No Im not saying that rough times arent ahead but here just think about this. Rob & I have encountered great trials and tribulations. Jealous people that make it thier daily mission to break us apart, we have a baby, we are married and we are doing the long distance thing. We are planning a wedding, a future, and trying to get set up for the rest of our lives. Now things aren't always crimson & clovers but I think if we can get through the hardest of times the next 60 years is nothing. My grandparents have been married 61 years!!! I asked my grandmother how she did it. Her answer. It's not easy. It's a lot of work and an effort to see things through. Being so far away is really hard. Being faithful isn't hard at all. It's the fact that people around me take for granted what they have. In my mind & heart I know I have found the one man who I will grow old w/ and be happy. The hard part is not being able to share my days w/him. Everything reminds me of my husband. We have only shared 2 years together & I have incorporated him into every aspect of my life. When you are in love you can't imagine not having that person in your life, am I right or what? You're mind just draws a blank. I have one more year left in the Marines. I deal with the loneliness by keeping busy. People in the military are so quick to just give up. When did marriage become so casual. Is it just a piece of paper? It's not! Atleast not in my eyes. It wasn't too long after Rob & I started dating that I got pregnant. We didn't get married just because we were having a baby.  Everyone is different. I won't lie. I was nervous. I didnt want to be another military statistic. What Im trying to get at is that I am so happy to have found the man I want to grow old with. Someone to build and share a life with. My grandmother was right its not always easy but it is definitely worth it. Moral of the story is if you have found the ONE then keep them for forever and a day... Marry that person and let them know you love them so much. Does this make any sense?

Father's Day

Well it doesn't help that Rob is 650 miles away and he had to spend his father's day without his son or his wife. Made me a little blue but no sense on dwelling on it. Rob and I made a "OURSPACE" on myspace. So since I wont have my own blog there, this will be my very own writing space. I went to church this morning which was a little different for me. For awhile now, my faith wasn't part of my Sunday routine. But I found myself just saying daily prayers. Corny I know. Don't get me wrong I am no where near a "holy roller" or even claiming to be something I'm not. I curse, I drink, and well obviously I had premarital sex. But on the other hand I try and catch myself from judging others or holding grudges. I find that we are all human beings and you should be kind to those who aren't so kind in return and smile at them. For you are having a better day than them. You might as well be grateful for the fact that you can smile in your day and they can only be grumpy.

Another thing that I don't want to do in my blogs is make situations seem like they are perfect and just peachy. In fact today I felt fat and gross. I wanted to cut off all my hair and dye it blonde. Trust me I thought about it. And we aren't talking just below the shoulders. We are taking to the chin but obviously I did not. Thankfully I don't have a credit card in my hands to max out bc today I would have done some serious shopping damage. Instead I went to church, food shopping, cleaned the house, played with AJ, made dinner, took AJ for a walk, call all the daddies and now I'm here writing about it. I miss my husband so much. It almost makes me angry to not have him around. But I guess one more year apart is nothing compared to a lifetime together. I just don't like living for the future anymore. But I don't exactly have a choice. I want to be with my husband so this is the price I have to pay

I had the gas chamber this past week which was not fun. I also had my physical fitness test which I knew I tried my hardest but I wanted to do so much better. I always get nervous before these events which does not help. This week I have to go to the combat pool and to the ISMT. The second week in July I have to go to the rifle range and eventually who knows where I will be or what I will be doing. My plane ticket is booked for myJune 30th- 96. I get off at 12 on the 30th and don't have to be back until 6pm on the 5th. Not too shabby. My dad should be coming down soon and stoofie said she was going to be coming here in aug. My new phone comes this week and I'm excited about that. Not to excited about putting all the numbers in my phone but w/e I will survive. On a better note Dice and Lily got engaged last night. I'm so happy for them.... Lily is a great woman is she brings out the best in Dice. They are really in love and I wish them nothing but the best.  I've also been coming up with lists for the wedding. Places to have the reception, churches, florists, limos, DJ's, dress places and what not. So much to do and I dunno if I'm gonna have enough time. Well if you keep reading the future blogs you will see the updates. Anyway I'm gonna go loves... Talk to you all later. ::Smooches::

 

P.S AJ started the BIG KID room @ daycare on Friday. Of course I started to get sad. My little man is getting so big. Thank goodness he isnt my last child....

Why???

I stopped writing in here for a long time but Im about to start up again. Mainly b.c people I didnt want reading my stuff kept checking out my life...But then I forgot most people are protesting myspace b/c they dont want to get sucked in LOL. Since Jan. a lot has happened but lets not even try to back track. Rob got me a new cell which Im really excited about. I have had the same cell number for years and I dont talk to a lot of people that I use to.

I have 18 days until I get to see Rob so I am trying to plan everyday so I keep myself busy. Whether it be at work or home, something has to pass the time. This week I have AJ's doctors appt, I have the gas chamber, and my physical fitness test on friday. Inbetween all that I have work, gym, AJ and getting ready for fathers day. Hopefully next weekend I will be in Charlotte visiting Tracy and the family...I decided I think Im gonna use this space as a way to post my creative writing pieces and ideas. Who knows lets see what I can come up with LOL........ Until later tata

Catch you up to speed

OK this will be really quick but very informative. Since December 6th a lot has happened. I worked my butt off and on the 20th headed up to NY for vacation. The baby and I drove up to spend the next two weeks in the Grand NY.... Christmas Eve we spend with Rob's family. It was great to have just about everyone there. It would have been great if Colie and Eddie were there as well. Anywho the kids (AJ and Haylie) got so many presents. Christmas Eve night Rob spent with me at my dads. I had to wake everyone up since everyone including the baby just wanted to sleep all day. Well I got great gifts and then we headed over to my Aunt Tia's. There wasn't a whole lot of us like there was on Thanksgiving but it was great. I got relax a whole lot and we had fun. My grandma kept feeding Anthony tortellini. LOL. Well later that week Rob and I got married. Small ceremony and a wedding dinner to follow. It was great!!! I got to say "I do" finally! So December 29, 2005 I became Mrs. Ferrie. I am still in the process of changing my name legally. The next day I went out with the girls which reminds me I gotta go get those pics developed. I drank a lil to much and got sick. That next days was New Years Eve. I spent a quiet night home with the family and Dice and Lily. We played Texas Holdem and called it a night. Anyway I went back to work and now Im working for a new unit. I really like the people I work with and they understand how hard it is to be raising a baby and working full time. Which is great b/c i didnt have that with my last unit. I hit my 2 years on station next month so I finally get to put my transfer in to NY :) that would make me so happy. Rob and I havent decided if we wanna save money and live with my dad or have our own place. Either way it doesnt look like we are gonna live in NY forever. Plus now that I have been living down here I have gotten used to all the really friendly people. Cant you believe I turn 21 this year I feel so old LOL. The baby will be 1 and Rob is gonna be 26 JEEZ hes really old. Anyway I have to start planning Haylie's Christening. First off I better get intouch with Aunt Colie B-4 I do anything. OK the laundry is all done and I gotta go. Hope you like the pics